Sometimes it is all around you but you just don't get it...

Recently I was asked to speak at a Women’s Connection event at our church. These are events that connect women in the community with God and with each other. At the time I was asked to consider speaking I immediately had a vision of a dark haired woman wearing a skirt speaking to the audience. So I began to inquire of the Lord; “Who is this woman?” Is it me? No, certainly not, I thought, or I would know.

You see, I felt certain that because I had not received a topic to speak about that God was saying it was for some one else. Finally three days before the event I was challenged to commit to speak and then ask God for a topic. I did and this is what He showed me to say.

Like this vision there are other things in life that I just didn’t get. The biggest one was God’s love for me. I knew my Bible stories. And I knew that He so loved the world, but I was not the world.
And so I turned to other gods to satisfy all those empty places in my soul.

Then one day as I searched for Him, He found me and some how in all His infinite wisdom and creativity God caused me to know, ‘He loved me.’

It was so overwhelming my only response was ; “I never knew, I never knew how much You loved me.” At that moment I desired to choose God in all my affairs and began to make changes in my life to reflect this desire.

Then one night on retreat I experienced Jesus in a way I never believed possible. Jesus came and stood in front of me and as He reached out His hand and touched me and at that moment it became more than God loving me or me loving God.

You see, that night God put a mark on my heart and that night I surrendered all of my life … because that night all of my life was given to me by God. As my Pasor would say, "I was finally alive."

Scriptures began to take on new meaning.

He showed me how He had been my Hosea, my faithful husband, as over the years I had played the harlot with other gods.
He became my Boaz, my Kinsman Redeemer.
He has revealed Himself to me as the Son of Righteousness with healing in His Wings as He has healed my body from multiple syndromes, sicknesses and diseases.
He is my Mordecai.

He has shown me that like Moses, Sarah and John the best came in their latter years, and I must not to be discouraged but press on to finish strong.

As of late He is teaching me to dance. As I often struggle to lead; He ever so gently draws me closer and whispers, ‘Trust Me’.

He has captured my heart, He is my beloved.
Winter is past; spring time has come as I learn to dance with the Lover of my soul……

Do you know how much God loves you?
Try it and see for yourself, go searching for Him and allow Him to find you.

God promises that if you draw near to God and He will draw near to you....James 4:8